On Monday last week, my beautiful, intelligent, talented, funny, popular, loved and loving 14 year old niece died very suddenly and unexpectedly.
I do not have the words to describe the horror of this past week and a half. The pain my brother, sister in law and nephew are going through is unimaginable. In time, the rest of us will get on with our lives but for them, this is just the start.
To me, this is pure devastation - nothing will ever be the same again.
In the meantime, I continue injecting myself with ivf drugs but to be honest, it has lost all meaning to me now.
The world no longer makes sense.